Secondary Post - Why?

“A blog is a conversation no one wanted to have with you,” - Michelle Wolff

Fully aware, so thank me later for not calling to go over these topics with you.

WHY ARE YOU WRITING THIS?

Why does anyone write? To process and possibly share. I  had a hard time deciding whether or not to publish this because there is a such a benefit of writing for oneself and not thinking of the audience. Even in this post, I already censored myself by deleting one “fucking” and deciding that since my parents are probably going to read this, I’ll stay away from sex or maybe post a BIG RED WARNING when close family should pass on an entry.

I also realize I have a pattern since I was a kid of not being able to make decisions easily and constantly going back and forth on the potential butterfly effect of any decisions I may make. Maybe through writing I can see that nothing matters. Or maybe, I’ll see that everything matters and I every decision I’ve made has put me on a new trajectory that I can decide to control again or not.

Why BLOGGER? Are you cheap as fuck?
I am writing a blog on Blogger because I opened a WordPress blog and it wanted me to code before I could write and publish. This is the equivalent of IKEA sending me a 200 piece couch to put together when I’m exhausted and just want to sit down tonight.

And yes, I am cheap, but I did splurge to purchase a domain name, carolinenw.com, I just can’t figure out how to use it.

WHY ARE YOU OFFENDING ME WHEN YOU TALK SHIT ABOUT XYZ?
I’m an asshole. I’m sorry ahead of time. My goal is to write a book with stories that show my underlying development to become less of an asshole over time. Progress towards being less of an asshole while also accepting myself as a bit of an asshole. Leadership is tough, namaste, ok?


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